Do You Ever? - Poetry
16/01/2015 07:43
My heart is pounding my chest so hard that I feel like it may rip open and let the anxiety spill from its hole.
I feel like the cloud is no longer hovering, but is actually swallowing me whole.
You can go from good days to bad or you can go bad days to worse.
You know that it’s real when you check to see if suicide rules out insurance pay offs and perks.
Do you ever battle succumbing to the temptation of leaving?
Do you ever wonder how people would react? If they’d even be grieving?
Why am I sat typing, spilling my thoughts instead of sat focusing on earning this living?
Hard to focus when you can think about nothing else than if you even want to be living.
Do you ever cry for attention and wonder why you don’t get it?
Or if you get it, you swear to God that you really don’t want it?
Do you ever take a minute to stain blushed cheeks with rivers of lost hope?
But emerge like you’d been busy, nothing happened and continue to cope?
Do you ever selfishly struggle with sanity? Anxiously?
Do you ever sit in noisy silence as the guilt floods right through you?
Slip further into a lie as it further consumes you?
Do you ever?
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Topic: Do You Ever? - Poetry
Date: 19/01/2015
By: ninjacat
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powerful and full of emotion I hope you find the help you need , please do talk to someone x
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Date: 19/01/2015
By: My Family Ties
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A beautiful poem, it sounds like you are going through a hard time, I hope it gets better soon xx
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Date: 19/01/2015
By: Globalmousetravels
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This is so sad. You should speak to someone about this as life doesn't have to feel this way, it can be a beautiful place.
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Date: 17/01/2015
By: Sonya Cisco
Beautifully written but terribly heart wrenching. Like others have already said,please seek help if this is how you are feeling xx
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Date: 17/01/2015
By: sam @happyhomebird
Subject: poem
Beautiful words and a poem that I think most of us can relate to at one time or another.
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Date: 17/01/2015
By: Gretta (Mums do travel)
This is very moving to read. I hope that you're OK. Please talk to someone about how you're feeling if you think that you need professional help.
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Date: 17/01/2015
By: Clare @ Emmy's Mummy
A beautiful poem but I hope you are OK? I hope writing this helps to get some of these feelings out as I know bottling up things really doesn't help.
I've been her and it's a horrible play to be stuck - keep talking and accept help if it's needed
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Date: 16/01/2015
By: Rachel
I feel like this occasionally and find writing things down helpful x
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Date: 16/01/2015
By: Lori
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What a heartfelt poem, i hope you feel better anxiety and depression is such a hard thing to live with and deal with without help. x
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Date: 16/01/2015
By: Jen aka The Mad House
I have been in that hole and felt the fear. I hope you get some help
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